Canova, Maddalena penitente , 1796 Marble and gold plated bronze, 95 x 70 x 77 cm © Musei di Strada Nuova, Genova – Palazoo Tursi

Escape Guilt by Alison M. Gingeras and Jamieson Webster

“I found a note from a patient. It said, “guilt is a dull knife.” I then found a note to myself that remarked on a running refrain in my head that riffed on Neil Young’s “Helpless”: “In my mind, I still need a place to go. All my changes were there.” I went on to detail rage at my parents for having decimated one home after another. Setting up a stable home in my own life has been very difficult; it’s as if I have to pay for this childhood rage. Tired as I am of this cliché, especially as it applies to women, I must be very guilty.”


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